28.1.13

Protective, they are.

Alololo.. tomey tomey..

Apa yang saya belajar baru baru ni, lelaki memang bersifat melindungi.

Walaupun dia nakal, walaupun dia gila gila, walaupun dia melepak tak  tentu hala, tapi dia akan protect gadis yang dirasakan layak diprotect.

Dia tahu gadis tak seharusnya keluar malam. Dia tahu gadis takkan buat benda tak senonoh. Dia tahu gadis seeloknya duduk di rumah, bukan melepak tak tentu hala.

Biar siapa pun lelaki itu. Sama ada yang baik dan alim. Ataupun yang nakal [Notice nakal, bukan jahat], smokers, geng lepak malam malam, geng berjimba tak tahu ke mana hala, geng yang pantang dicabar main try habis semua benda. Tapi, mereka semua ada sifat itu. Yang jenis baik memang tak payah cakap lah kan?

Dengan syarat dia hormatkan gadis itu. I mean, gadis tu deserve to be respected.

InsyaAllah that includes me.

18.1.13

Can a butterfly remember life as a caterpillar?

How great it is if we can forget all those bad memories and only treasure the good ones. If only they could be erased just like that. Poof!! And it all gone.

Life as a caterpillar is hard. Indeed. Same goes to us. We have our dark past. Our "dirty little secret". But no matter how hard we try to forget it, it will still be haunting us. Hell, no! You can't break free of that. No matter how beautiful the caterpillar end up as a butterfly, it still started as a caterpillar. That's the fact of life.

But, on the second thought, it is not that bad actually. Really. How bad can it be by being a caterpillar? Yeah, you're ugly, cause itchiness, people hate hate hate you. But isn't that how life suppose to be? Ok, that was about caterpillar. What if you have to live with your mistake for the rest of your life? The biggest ever mistake, unforgivable mistake. Living a life that you know you can do nothing to make it better. And, forever hoping that one day you will wake up, back to 2011, having the second chance to make it right. But, no! You will never have that chance.

So, just, live with it. Either live in despair for having committed such an act, or move forward to become a better person. After all, people will judge. And every moment, there will be someone hating you.

If life is unfair to everyone, that would make life fair, right?

14.1.13

The apple of my eyes.

Or should I say apples?


Everyone is here, my desktop wallpaper. 
Family and friends
From Al-Amin, to MRSM PC, to CFS IIUM.
So, I won't be missing any of you again. ;-)
Tak payah besar besar. Gambar edisi terhad. You know who you are. 

Let's start anew

Semua post yang tidak matang sebelum ni sudah di delete. 
It's 2013, and I will be 19. Tahun yang terakhir untuk menjadi gadis sebelum bergelar wanita. 
Semua orang marah bila saya cakap saya gadis bukan wanita. Mereka dengki.

Anyways, usia bertambah, tanggungjawab bertambah. Jadi perangai harus berubah. 

Tinggal satu je lagi semester di CFS IIUM sebelum bergelar siswi secara rasmi. Tanggungjawab utama, mestilah belajar. Tapi banyak lagi tanggungjawab sampingan. Dengan halaqah, kelas, hisbah. Tapi insyaAllah, semua tu mampu di hadapi. Jangan anggap semua tu beban, dan sentiasalah ikhlas. 
Hadoi, susah tu, susah susah..

Ok. Seminggu lagi sebelum start sem baru. Bring it on, baby!